I didn't know...

Recently, I have been wondering how families deal with multiple tragedies. I also wondered why God had to even give families multiple tragedies. Why not just divy them up? This family gets one tragedy, this family another tragedy, etc. I just don't think it's fair. I'm not really questioning God, I am simply saying, that this is not the way I would do things. Then again, I've always been aware that the way God does things is always better than the way I would do them. :-)

A new unexpected journey...

In March, 2009, I went back to Rush to meet with my surgeon, oncologist and radialogist for my 1st follow up visit after my treatment. I sailed through every test with the end verdict? I was cancer free!!! What an awesome, crazy, amazing, overwhelming feeling. It had been exactly one year since this breast cancer journey had begun. The waiting, the doctors visits, more doctors visits, phone calls to hospitals, to insurance companies. As though having to fight cancer wasn't enough, you have to fight with the records department at 2 hospitals and the receptionists in all of your doctors offices. The surgery, the recovery, the radiation, the check ups, being touched by more strange people than I ever thought possible. It was a hard road, but wow... I was cancer free and God had continued to answer our prayers. It would be 6 full months before I would step into the hospital again. Or, so I thought. Once again, God had a different journey planned out for me and my family. One that we are struggling to get direction, but trusting that God is and always will be, in control. You see, when things seem completely out of our hands, it is because they are in God's hands. We can question Him, we can get mad at Him, and we can blame Him, we can feel like we are losing our minds, but the fact remains the same. God is ALWAYS in control. He loves us, He will take care of us and He will NEVER forsake us.